Well, right now I'm 16 and have had anorexia in and off for about 3 years. It started when I was 13, and needed to lose weight. I lost it, and then couldn't stop losing more. I would have lost a lot more, my thinking was that if I looked thin at 89 lbs, I would look a whole lot thinner( and better) at 80 lbs, but my weight loss plans were put to a stop by my mom deviating with the doctor. It ended with me fainting on the doctors floor..
And then I went through a terrible year where I gained everything back. I couldn't lose it, and I couldn't stop eating. I felt completely out of control. But that ended last year, with me losing it all again. But then I just recetly gained it back..I feel terrible about myself. I just want my fat to go away. My friends say I look fine..but I don't believe them.
So here is my blog of my new life. I'm starting it over again. Excercising; counting calories; going to bed with that familiar hungry feeling; hiding the fact that I don't eat; bring it on.
I know I have a eating disorder; I tried to make myself throw up today, but then caught myself by saying I just wouldn't eat anything else today. But I don't care.
" Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels"
That is so true..I'm not eating anything else today..